Freezing my face off

So....I got my wisdom teeth hacked out of my mouth on Monday.

Before they gave me the IV they made me breath some sort of gas. It felt like I was being squeezed to death. My arms and legs were really heavy and my throat was burning. It was so weird. As always when you are in an odd situation with things covering your face, the lovely ladies in the room try to have a conversation with you. Seriously. I was basically high on some anesthetic and they are asking where I went to school, what I'm majoring in, and how many siblings I have. Really? I know you're going to stab me with that huge needle, just do it already! :) So, the last thing I remember was freaking out about the IV in my arm.

I don't remember much. I woke up, asked for chapstick, then I was in the van at a drive through window, then there was a milkshake in my hand, then I was at home running into the house to puke in the sink. :P

And since then I've been laying around the house with the funky ice pack thing around my head.

I'm supposed to be going on a trip this weekend. Woohoo for fat cheeks and the possibility of dry socket.

yah. Who's genius idea was this? "Lets make people spend tons of money on braces, and then tell them if they want to keep their nice smile they have to pay for surgery to extract teeth they don't have room for. Oh, and I almost forgot the best part. Let's make sure they don't do this until they are almost an adult. It's much more humiliating."

Whatever.
To those of you who haven't had them pulled yet: hehehe just you wait. :)

In Christ
~Michelle

Happy Birthday

to the best dad ever! :) Crazy, how you keep getting older ;)

In Christ

~Michelle

14 Things

...I love about May:

1. Warm weather

2.The end of school

3. Flowers

4. Lilacs (I know they are flowers....but they are so pretty and smell amazing :)...)

5. Sunshine

6. Apple and Cherry blossoms

7. Flip-flops

8. Fresh rhubarb

9. Washing my car (with the intent of getting a tan)

10. Gardening (until the weeds show up, and then I'm no where to be found)We started a little herb garden in pots...I'm soo excited :)

11. Longer days

12. Thunderstorms

13. Rollerblading with friends :)

14. My Birthday!!

yah. So I turn 20 today. AH! ....I'm no longer a teenager! Don't worry... I'm still my crazy self ;)

In Christ ~Michelle

Kid at Heart

sooo...

Thank goodness for little cousins on excruciatingly hot days.
Without them I could not have played in the sprinkler today. :)

yah. I'm almost 20.

:)

In Christ
~Michelle

Manderley

"Last night, I dreamt I went to Manderley again. It seemed to me I stood by the iron gate leading to the drive, and for a while I could not enter for the way was barred to me. Then, like all dreamers, I was possessed of a sudden with supernatural powers and passed like a spirit through the barrier before me. The drive wound away in front of me, twisting and turning as it had always done. But as I advanced, I was aware that a change had come upon it. Nature had come into her own again, and little by little had encroached upon the drive with long tenacious fingers, on and on while the poor thread that had once been our drive. And finally, there was Manderley - Manderley - secretive and silent. Time could not mar the perfect symmetry of those walls. Moonlight can play odd tricks upon the fancy, and suddenly it seemed to me that light came from the windows. And then a cloud came upon the moon and hovered an instant like a dark hand before a face. The illusion went with it. I looked upon a desolate shell, with no whisper of the past about its staring walls. We can never go back to Manderley again. That much is certain." (shortened version)

So, this week I read Rebecca for my lit. class. Daphne du Maurier knew how to write. It took me a while to get into it because I new the story, but when I got to the night of the Manderley ball....Ah! I flew through it. :) I didn't really realize how amazingly creepy it was.

"She was in the house still as Mrs. Danvers said, she was in that room in the west wing, she was in the library, in the morning-room, in the gallery above the hall. And in the garden, and in the woods, and down in the stone cottage on the beach. her footsteps sounded in the corridors, her scent lingered on the stairs. The servants obeyed her orders still, the food we ate was the food she liked.Her clothes were in the wardrobes in her room, her brushes were on the table, her shoes beneath the chair, her nightdress on the bed. Rebecca was still mistress of Manderley. Rebecca was still Mrs. de Winter,"

Really. Creepy. This begins my favorite part of the story. All seems lost, then the truth is revealed and Mrs. de Winter finally stands up to Mrs. Danvers. "I am Mrs. de Winter now, you know." haha! Triumph. :)

Anyway, I wish Manderley was a real place. It sounds so beautiful. A gorgeous mansion surrounded by wild forests and flowers. Not to mention, a breathtaking view of the ocean, and a beach house. :)

It was quite an enjoyable assignment. I would definitely suggest reading it!
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So, this week has been great. Its been pretty quiet around here and school is winding down. yay. Wednesday night I went to the Blend with Ellie, Wendi, Brooke, and Kristen. It was like old times, except Ellie was talking about Troy. :)

And I'm still frantically looking for a job (or not so frantically ;) hehe)

That's about it...

In Christ
~Michelle

Change

I was excited. I am excited. But, I was sad. I still am sad.

yah. I hate mixed emotions.

I know everyone says "you'll move on, its not that bad." But I don't want to move on! I like things the way they are. I am perfectly content and will remain so ...unless things change and then I'll have to readjust. Which I don't like doing.

Really I'm happy for her. Really, really happy for her. She is so happy and peaceful, and they are so stinkin' cute together, and he's the nicest guy on the face of the earth, and she totally deserves it, but I guess I'm just scared.

Scared that It'll be like my mom and some of her friends who just say hi in passing, that like my high school friends we'll start to move on and be perfectly fine with it, that someday we'll be sending Christmas cards to each other and our kids will say "who are those weird people."

I'm not going to let it happen

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So, Wednesday night Ellie wanted us all to get together with her at the blend. Well, I was suspicious. We got our drinks and sat down. And then she pulled out her cellphone and showed us a text from him. Ellie is engaged. Needless to say we had to stifle our screams and giggles as not to alert the whole place. :) It was a lot of fun and eventually we moved out side where we screamed, and laughed, and said things like "wow, um, wow....oh my." (very profound I know)

I had plans this weekend, that now I had to cancel without telling why. So, I concocted a lame excuse about homework and hoped it was convincing.

After surviving through the rest of the week, Kendra, Wendi, Larissa, and I got together to hash the whole thing over on Friday. We walked around Washington talking about pretty much nothing else. :)

Ellie invited us over on Saturday to meet Troy. I told my parents I was going "shopping" with Kendra. hehehe. I'm so horrible. It was tons of fun and made me feel a ton better about a strange guy taking my Ellie away :). He is cool. They told us their story and showed us ideas for the wedding. Ooo...which I get to be in!!!

Saturday night after he went back home Kendra, Wendi and I got together with Ellie. That was another series of mutterings of excuses for why I was hanging out with my friends for the third time. :) Anyway, we played dutch blitz and hung out and had fun.

Today we all sat up front in church and tried to stay calm while the announcements were read. So, now its official, Ellie is moving away in three months.

Anyway, so this afternoon I was bored and I was looking though all my pictures to find some for the scrapbook page. (oh yay!) And I found a few fun ones

Aw.... we had some great times. :)

These next few months are going to be packed full of crazy fun. I'll get over my selfish "poor me" attitude eventually so don't feel bad for me. And, I'm moving down to U of I this fall anyway...things will change...but I still don't like it ;)

In Christ ~Michelle